Tonight I was reading the journal that I had started in February and I came across a couple wonderful memories that once again warmed my heart while reading. My first entry was 2-14-07 "Valentine's Day" and it read:
"Today I allowed myself to dream of you as if you are my actual reality, my future. Today is Valentine's Day, the day to celebrate those whom we love most in our lives, today I celebrate you! My daughter, wherever you may be - I love and celebrate you. Today I found the perfect card, it is a very girlie pink with tiny flowers, and all it reads is, "Daughter." This is my inspirational momento now - Today I start my journey to find you." Love your Mommy (with a purple heart drawn next to it.)
To look back on that day is amazing. I had never allowed myself to think about 'Me, Christy' actual being a mom, it wasn't my reality. Valentine's Day 2007 I allowed myself to dream!!
